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Deyla

Happy. Turned 23 on 18/08/10. Here's a little something about me; i was born & raised in sabah. Im a shisha enthusiastic and Im Phlegmatic. *evil grin* More respect to people who have nice attitude, straight life and save the circles, peace not war. I hate posers, backstabbers, liars and clowns. I wake real early & sleep real late. Im as stubborn as they come and im known to hit low. I try my hardest every day to be the best I can be. I like who I am despite my flaws. I have a hard time remembering the things i should remember & a hard time forgetting the things i should forget. I dont care what you're talking behind my back but heck i care that i've change a lot i must say. So, you have no right to judge me! Appreciation and compliment is acceptable. *peace*

Events

01 JAN : New ♥ life begin.
09 JAN : Cici & DD's Engagement Day
20 JAN : Angah's Bfday!
22 JAN : Kak Long's Bfday!
02 FEB : CinsClass
03 FEB : Mom's Bfday!!
13-14 FEB : Kursus
20 FEB : Ayman's Bfday Celebration
24 FEB : Idah's Bfday!
07 MAC : PARAMORE!!
25 MAC : Kakak Zila's Bfday!
27 MAC : I ♥ ME
02 APR : Farahku's Bfday!!
05 APR : Kak Dana's Bfday!
07 APR : Eentan's Bfday!
20 APR : Mahathir's Bfday!

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Howdie!

[12.06a.m - Monday / June 1st, 2009]
Got up early to help me on something but then she's busy watching tennis- LIVE!
aisehh~ how am i going to get back to bed while im wide awake? hmm..

Sarah stayed over at my place for a night lastnight. Frankly speaking, sleepover at my place. lols. Just messing around wif this keyboard. ngaahaha~
Lets get back to the story.. so since she's at my place, we hangouts met college friends and chill out for bit. WHAT?! for bit berabiss~ lols.

We went to :

Grace Point - SZ
Waterfront - parking full shyt!
Upperstar - "berabiss" ngaahaha! fetch Howard.
Shens - packed!
fetch Ameng lagi di petagas - last minute btul!
Bed - macam chinese new year! packed! + watched Chelsea won 2-1 to (i cant remember) whatever it is, Chelsea WON!! woot! woottt!! BTW, i dont like the band there. chaos!
Barsu - nanti macam 'hari raya di court moment' ahaha! some of u tahu juga apa maksudnya kan? ngaahaha~
Rumba - went around 1am, slow and steady place just for chillin' layan2 muzik - and yeah it's local band! usually filipino's. the band ok2 la. not that bad. not really into them but heck i enjoyed the moment the best! my crazy mate Ameng made my day! lols!

We had fun, at the moment in rumba - gilak! boring place at time turned out to be awesome night again ya'll! lols. see! how i love myself with lovies around.
Sarah! i hope u had fun and u can stay at my place ANYTIME and u know it ryte? ngee~
Lets hangout some more next time ayte babe? luv ya!

Sunday
We did nothing much.. breakfast wif the family + sarah. went to Warisan Square wif the girls before sarah's heading home. Went to airport, mom got work to do and i saw Muz from afar. he called me while doing his job as usual. silly man!
dinner at 6. and outs! zZZz!

Pictures moment!

Sisters in the car ya'll!
ngaahaha! xp

Meyo, Howyo, Seryo!

Sarah pakai tepung gomak!
ngahaha! j.k. babe! =p

Oh sahabat!
MIA : kelok. =(

♥ ya babe!

Brownies and cherry on top!
agaga!

Will upload ameng's video soon.
ndatau mcm mana mo rotate video nie.. *sigh*

Nitey nyte!
*toodles*

Friday, May 29, 2009

HAHAHAPPY BIRTHDAY qoqoi.
biar dia nda datang, tapi kami sentiasa disisi. lols!
'No to suicide.'

Boring + Stress Trio = Gilakk!
befday boi and me.

This lady here is soo hyper!
scary yet funny thou'~ lol!

This girl here, knocked out berabiss!

awhh~ i think she likes me. ngahaha!
(saya gumook! abaikan ja la ahh~ erkk.)

Awesome family! Crazy shyt! lols.

Raja Gopal. Stress wannabe. =p

"Picture tells a thousands word."
but it doesnt look what it seems. cheers!
*stabbed*

Ever since u found yourself in someone else's arms,
I've been trying my best to get along but that's ok, there's nothing left to say.=')  
ok.ok! emo mode OFF!
mo sambung kemas bilik.
miss you!
take care!

it still hurt so bad~
*sigh*

To whom who may concern :

I may not be pretty or cute and I may not be sexy or romantic.
I may not be rich..yet. I may not be the girl you thought i would be.
But i do know I have PRIDE.
I accept your challenge mate!

Will upload last night pixie soon!
Boring night turned out to be AWESOME happening night!
ngee~

Hi im Annie by the way. lols.

Until next hours!
*toodels*

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Hallo lovely!
i'll be away for a moment to update my shop blog.
new product is on the way.
that would be cards!
Raya cards ya'll!
Order? call me ya. ngee~

I'll update in few hours or what?! next minutes? lols!
nahh.. will be busy before im on leave next month for few days.

Love ya'll!
*xoxo*

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Feels like dancing. urghh~ dangg babe!

no. this is not the original singer. no official video clip yet so they made a great job on this.
saya mo belajar buat video clip lepas nie! woots!

Feels like singing out loud!! whoa!

Hi si gumook!
*wink*

Hi si kakak ipar tersayang!
*hugs*

Hi si abangku Cici & Cik Zurin!
hihii~

Hi si abangku Kamal!
*minta no. digi free sampai bila2 lagi. plz!*

Hi si pemakan2 ice-cream!

*yummy*

saya mau makan! uwaaa!
semua makanan keluar balik dr mulut, macamana nie??
buncit air sudah. darn!

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

hallo hallo ngello!
-qoqoiqoqoitakokoi-

supposed to hangout wif qoqoi tomorrow but then dia gilak & nda tahan mo meluahkan perasaan yang sedang dialaminya.. ohoho~ =p he called while i was driving to nowhere.
just on time dude! huhu~ xp
dude! u're to rush! kasii lek ja.. she'll understand ya someday.
at the same time it feels good to have someone to talk to and forget about anything.
not everything will never be.pfft.
baahaha! (yeaaala tu kan qoqoi! senyap 1 minit pun in 18jam punya crita! baahakaka!)
qoqoi turned 20 on May 20, 2009. woot woot!
khamis nie kasii jadi lagiii~ *evil grin* i'll try to pujuk her la k.

Kelok sedang mengecat rumah. i miss u!
Amoi sedang berada di kampung halamannya d lahad datu. i miss u juga!
Zack dimana2 ja ada kalau mau. aku rindu mo ajar ko bcakap. ngaahaha! =p
saya rindu abang2 ku - Cici and Kamal
+
KAKAK IPAR ku yang sentiasa memberi kata semangat yang hebat thou' ko pun tengah berduka yang kedai ko mo suda ada orang sewa! bwahahahaha!
Now- 12a.m = cuppycakes moment!! awwhh~ i mish u guys in KL alot! =(

ding dong deng
im out!

We as in me and my elder brother (Cici) had conversation about his status of the day ;

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

Cici said " mari kita bincang kan apa maksud 'seeing imperfect' ". im loving this topic. just the right topic at the right time. memang kita nie selalu mengalami dilema sebegini rupa kan.. akakaka! so now kami mau buka company kaunseling sudah. lols!

hey2! my favorite part in the conversation ialah~ :

Akmal Ash at 11:31am May 26

sy rasa ayat "seeing an imperfect" jugak di tujukan kepada the finder~ bagi sy ia satu adalah peringatan kepada si finder, bagi saya ayat sebenarnya "PLS FINE A SINGLE CHICS!! NO SCANDAL SCANDAL"

imperfect = solo~

saya rasa begitu ^_^

Maka:dalam bahasa melayu nya

cinta, bukan pencarian org yg sempurna, carik la org yg single, dan lihat ia dgn sempurna. hahahaha!!!

*********************************

ahaha! bongok thoughts! lols. my thoughts were different at the same time i was thinking it might be true. hihii.. like brainstorming - accept the logic and unlogically thoughts then reframe it. huu~ xp

wanna share? sila la baca ditempat si Cici ahh a.k.a Akmal Ash untuk sambungannya. x)

ok.ok.
until the next hour(s)
adioss pipols!

I feel prrretty today. baahaha!

Sexy snoopy eyes
Sexy bubble pale lips
Cutie lil' whole smile

whatt?!
baahahaha!

until next hour~
*evil grin*
*toodles*

Im over it.

Eveything is fine with me. ngee~
Shit happens.
Karma is really exist. I thought it just a word. blerrghh~ =p
Life is sweet!! enjoy it while we still can.
We dont know what might come.
I wanna start enjoy my life this coming June. pfft.
why not now? i cant 'cause i need to calm everything, plan everything so the 'everything' can run smoothly. *peace*
I wanna wish to whom who's going to MASCA on July, all the best! kasii menang!! woot woot!!
Keyword for July plan would be - healing. hihii~

till then ♥,
*xoxo*

Monday, May 25, 2009

I HATE DOCTOR!

i love doctor who helped me.
i HATE the doctor who's telling me 'im not sure..yet. but i'll check back." dammit!
the impression doesn't look good i tell u. scary me shyt!
check the bloody blood back and tell me! thou' its not going to make me happy, i need to know the truth and i dont want to tell anyone and i dont want u to tell my family.
dont worry, imma good secret-keeper.
im sorry doctor. so please gimme some good result.
i promise i'll be good. ='(

Ill Nino - With You

Yeah
There's something in your ways
That makes me wanna stay here for a thousand years
So just cry your fears, yeah
I need you everyday
Inside you I just want to wipe away your fears
So just cry your tears, yeah

And I wish, I was, in you

If I stay, well than your tears will set you free
If I stay right here, and forever with you
Everything I feel for you
Is everything I want to stay with you
If I stay right here, and forever with you

My eyes
My eyes

This is tearing me apart
I wish I could be in your soft arms
Feel you again
Anytime I feel like I'm too far
I will try to remember all ours and
Your memories I know

I wish, I was, in you

If I stay, well than your tears will set you free
If I stay right here, and forever with you
Everything I feel for you
Is everything I want to stay with you
If I stay right here, and forever with you

My eyes, my eyes
My eyes, my eyes

favorite song - 2006

What's on my mind :

i need to work hard.
i need to jump off the building.
i need to be good with my blog.
i need to off my HP for a week perhaps or change my number.
i need to pack all the stuff in 1 big box.
i need to do an eyes treatment.
i need to go clinic and review! escaped from it doesn't help anything deyla~
i need to be strong. "Ya Allah, tolonglah kuatkan iman dan tabahkan hati hambamu ini Ya Allah.."
i think i believe in karma. what goes around comes around.

howdie. happy 1.30am- monday!

im home! and that means back to reality! *sigh*
move on. make yourself busy! aha. luckily i'll be starting work today! luckily?! heh~
im fine if no phone for a week. its time to think. think positive people! "buang yang keruh, ambik yang jernih" *wink*
i dont want to disturb any other people's life. we have our own life to care of. duhh~
this week is move on week! lets cheer for it and chill!
imma sarcasm freak. observer freak. love freak. hugger freak. and soon to be games freak! oh dammit! i gotta make it less. sorry. my bad~
turn your music on and sing aloud! agaga.
dont do your freak stuff deyla. NO p! NO s! NO t! big no! insyAllah~
how i wish i could.
can i monitor life? NO idiot! ok. freaks the hell out of me. i asked, i answered. blerghh~
its 2a.m already and im still wide awake and i got shop to run. i need some sleep! but i still wanna blog this crap coz my brain-diary is over-load-ed! so i spread some on my e-diary!
im not loner but i like to talk to my brain. coz we have the same thoughts and problems. somehow it end up - twisted! damn~
i wanna go out from here! move! hopefully to London wif Aunty Nita or New Zealand wif Kak Ike. i wanna work there. haishh~ dream on!
i wanna make this post colourful but not now, tomorrow perhaps.
song songs songss.. sing sings singing out loud!
its 2.10a.m. i need to go to bed! haishh~ get your arse off to bed deyla! aisehh~
i hate facebook! wanna know the truth of me not using real name at fb? 1) Nurfadhilah N : "You must provide your full name." 2) Nurfadhilah Ngalimin : "You have been blocked from using the name change feature for two weeks because a prior attempt was rejected by our system." blocked for 2 weeks just because i wanna use my real name?? wtf?!
ok then... will continue this morning at ofc. till then. ♥deyLa♥

im so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry so sorry. sorry for everything. music please! come on! sing along with me..

Friday, May 22, 2009

i dont feel like going out today. NO! i wanna go out but i just couldn't. Movie all da way.. until now- 3a.m~ woots! My sister in law's cat is so damn big already. no. all grown up i meant.
ngee~ cookie & coffee is almost same big as their mother (e.g. 10sen lagi sama. heh!)

i cancelled plan wif Acap, im sorry. and sorry to Knie either coz i dont remember that we should hangout today. i thought it was on thursday. but heck it is thursday today! damn! i need a glasses wif calendar on. i tried to play PS3, i sucks! harharhar. Adil sent me cupcakes all the way from Damansara to Puchong which is from WONDERMILK whoa! yummy and cutie! will post all the pictures soon as i get home in KK.

tomorrow's plan : i wish im not that lazy to go out again and stuck playing wif cats, singing, shouting, screaming, hallucinating and watching telly all day! go get your arse off from the house deyla! walk, shop and become healthier! ngaahaha~

nothing seems to work. *sigh*
but hey, glad to have the K just now. thanks F. x)
take care readers.
till den~

Thursday, May 21, 2009

hi readers.
im away for few days thou' i can online everyday using my bro' digi free line. erkk~
its legal ey~ huu.

no mood to update anything but this is the only place where i can write my thoughts.
my random thoughts.
my silly thoughts.
my emo thoughts.
my love thoughts.
my hate thoughts.
my miss thoughts.
the b thoughts.
thoughts.thoughts.thoughts.

im into soft slow musicnow such as Hello by Lionel Richie, Autumn Monologue by From Autumn To Ashes. Endless Love by Diana Ross & Lionel Richie..but hey, i flow wif feelings away sadly to nowhere. Lionel Richie's 'Just Go & All Night Long' caught my attention and driving me dancing and popped! this is reality. think ahead. no. not move on..yet. just think ahead not to think about past. it is what it is.
this week blog song is officially yours by craig david.
this song wayy nothing about my feelings but this song is my last 2 week's favourite.
it made me smile while i was way thinking of something when got paused from work.

sorry to Acap for cancelling our plan today. im having a heavy lips problem. sorry.
last but not list.. happy L monthsary to dear Fahad - 5y6m on May 20,2009.

soon..

Monday, May 18, 2009

Originally by Keith Urban - You'll Think Of Me

But im loving this version from i-dont-know-who.
♥♥

I woke up early this mornin' around 4 a.m.
With the moon shinin' bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keepin' me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's okay there's nothin' left to say, but.

Chorus:
Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories, I don't need 'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact, I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me.

I went out drivin', tryin' to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowin' what we could have been
What we should have been.
So.

Chorus:
Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories, I don't need 'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothin' left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me.

Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleepin' with your pride
Wishin' I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life.

Chorus:
Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories, I don't need 'em
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me.

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories, I don't need 'em
Take your space and all your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we've got nothin' left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me.

And you're gonna think of me
Oh, someday baby, someday...

heart caught by this lovely song with a lovely lyrics and it's almost perfect. almost..
so much thing i did and i dont last week. its time to think thou' imma heavy thinker i still need to think..wisely for sure. 'move on' is the word so is 'one step at a time' with 'heartless' plus 'you'll think of me' equal 'untitled'. ashes to ashes.blerghh~

will upload some pictures form last week~
*toodles*

Saturday, May 16, 2009

missing him already.
*tears*

loving this version by Kris Allen!
loveylovey~ ngee~

deylagogaga
adioss~

Thursday, May 14, 2009

SPECIAL THANKS
to
KAK EZY

for the lovely cupcakes all the way from Tawau. ngeee~
the icing rasa cam ice-cream! hihii
*hugs*

xoxo,
*deyLa*

Monday, May 11, 2009

Im an O B S E R V E R freak!
eat that!

Sunday, May 10, 2009

HAPPY MAMA'S DAY!!

cuppycakes by farah darling~
penat sudah berkata2 tadi so ini la saja cake untuk tahun nie. busy day!
present pun nda sempat ambik.
Reminder : deyla! jan lupa ambik present ESOK tengah hari!
we love u mom!

Cute lil' Ayman.
penat membawa dia bcrita. suka bcrita rupanya. huu~ =p
no picture during Aqiqah coz camera tertinggal dirumah. aisehh~
but will grab some from fahad~

that's it.
im tired. need some sleep. i miss my friends oredy.
*toodles*

Friday, May 8, 2009

im soo happy today. works- done!
suddenly, hal2 kereta nie bikin keluar uri tauu~
kimetss! i need transformer kinda like or or kereta kebal! paaaling ngam!
shitto!

p/s: i dont think im ready... yet. -
adioss~

Thursday, May 7, 2009

C H O I C E

im so craving for cheese nan deliciously from CHOICE plus ayam tika!
haiyayaii
PLAN : escape from work at 2, rush to kepayan! ngahaha~ *amin~*

Did u know choice ada branch baru at 1 Borneo? ya! ada! tapi bulum buka.. =(
SOON perhaps coz it seems almost done and ready to open.
(5 minutes - done and ready to publish)

(suddenly)

when i was busy blogging suddenly a guy came to my shop and usually they will just stand infront of the counter but this person, NO! he directly walk to the office. i was like.. "omigodd.. no stick, no knife and what should i do?!". *susah jua kalo rabun, payah meliat siapa. huu~*
but guess what?! its FAHAD. this friggin big fat liar of a bf. *sigh*
busy buat assignment etc.etc. konon.. yeah ryte! huhuu~
numb and speechless. ok that's me. it takes a moment to get loading.
anyhoo, suprised.touched.awwhh~ u r so gonna pay for this! ahaha! xp
p/s : ya ya. insyAllah saya datang nanti. jan risau. hmm.

enjoying the moment!

blurr!

(1 hour after - officially publish)

adioss!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

im so....friggin boring right now. busy but bo-o'oh-ring!

today is wednesday. - plan : no plan.
the next day is thursday. - plan : lunch wif nad & farah
shop for bbq's wif kelok, zack & amoi.
the day after is friday.- plan : bbq at 5. might be late coz im off from work at 6.
the day after friday is saturday.- plan : yattie's engagement day. congrats babe!
after saturday is sunday. - plan : HAPPY MAMA's DAY!!-
Kenduri Aqiqah Ayman at his grandfather's residence.

hmm.
that's it.
adioss.

Monday, May 4, 2009

i've been lazy to update my blog dis past few days. facing tons of problems. wanna clear every inch of it. how i wish i could. i seriously dont regret most of it. shit happens. i decided to move on. broken hearted is so cool! i enjoyed. no! whoever u are, u can talk no matter what u want but u cannot judge who the hell i am. life is hard to live. life is a game to me. deal with it deyla. u sucks in game. everybody knows dat. lol. i've been active playing games ever since so i tought i can easily figure how it ends. lol. lame me. i still sucks at it. bored easily. ngaahaha~
well however, those faces on my last post are the best lover i ever had instead of family la. how thankful i am to have u guys around me. ya'll always be there beside me no matter what. thou' thru phone, sms or meet me- i appreciate it so much! i love the way u cheered me up. made me laugh. crazy hell of a laugh. ahaha. do crazy stuff like we used to do before. gimme best advice - best counceling! =p . but everybody is busy with our own thang, i understood. we're all grown up. some of u are working and some is still studying.

to kelok, zack, amoi :- next week kamu exam and tons of assignments belum siap. good luck on that. thanks for spending times wif me since last 2 weeks. we had hell of a weeks! awesome! enjoyed! goshh~ miss u guys already padahal baru ja jumpa semalam. tapi aku tau kamu lagi rindu aku kan?? bwahahaha!

to ameng :- u called me from labuan to say sorry for not being here wif me. its ok. u did spent times wif us right after u got back from labuan. gilakkk! dis guy, just got back from labuan, convoy motorsikal bah.. punya penat tuu... at least kalau kereta boleh lagi menyandar, ini motor bah. crazy man! penat2 pun mo juga keluar and yeah, memang tidak pandai diam ini orang. dari ambik dia dirumah sampai la dihantar balik, bercakapp ja kerja dia. ahaha! ngok! lol! luv ya dude!

to my b's : u girls are awesome! busy kerja ja kamu kan.. thou' c angy busy bercuti sekarang nie. gonna meet her in kL next 2 weeks. hopefully. plan for next PLAN ya. hihii~ luv luv luv ya!! muahx!

here some pic' from last 2 weeks.

Macik Sheema and moi at Uncle Yusof's residence during Awin's engagement day.
24th April 2009

During Aima's wedding day with my collegue & besties.
25th April 2009

Me dad & me.
26th April 2009

Sunday at Papar with my best girls Angy, Bbiey, Sarah & Azlin (angy's bf).
26th of April 2009

Moi sis - volleyball tournament wakil KK at Ranau.
29th April 2009

L-R : 1) my best buddy is officially attached with amoi. loveleyh!
2) ameng trip jadi pekerja petrol station. serious ngam dgn baju keselamatan motor dia. lol.
3) my kiddo! soo damn shy. payah d suruh bcakap but once dia bcakap.. ngehehe! xp
2nd May 2009

Fook Yuen moment.
3rd May 2009

Movieee!!!
3rd May 2009

that's all folkz!
*toodles*

Sunday, May 3, 2009

[[ MODE : HAPPY- max! ]]

L-R: -angy.moi.bbiey.sarah-

Friends are like angels
They will stay until you’re all right
They’ll stay no matter what
Even if it takes all night

-kelok, ameng, farah, zack, amoi-

They’ll always be here for u
They’ll never turn away
They’re here for u
and forever they’ll stay

It is so strange to wake up and be glad to see another day
It is so unusual to smile over next to nothing
It is so hard to act as though nothing lights up my life

It feels so strange to feel so elated
I feel so happy
but i’d be happier to hold you in my arms

till then.
*xOXo*